Title: Only One Right Answer
Author: quirks4me
Timeline: Post 513
Author's Notes: Well, NY and Xie deserve thanks since their discussions of 513 inspired me to write something that helped me see past the pain, and focus on TEH LOVE that is there in 513, and to take Brian's "never again" speech not quite so seriously. :D Oh and this is my first drabble and first anything written as far as B/J. I have lots of stories running through my head but I've never written them down before. :\ Here it goes! *crosses fingers*

Both lie in Justin’s cramped bed, neither caring, satiated from the sex finished only moments ago.

“And here you were being such a drama queen, saying it’d be ‘never again’.”

“I didn’t say it’d be never again. I said ‘whether we see each other next week, next month never again.’ It was a multiple choice.”

“I see you chose option a.”

“Of course. It was the right answer.”

Justin looks over at him, seeing a smirk, which changes into a genuine smile. Justin returns a sunshine smile of his own.

“Damn right it was.”

He seals it with a kiss.

Ok, so I just wrote a drabble (!!!) Yeah I'm excited and nervous--my first QaF drabble!

Anyway, it doesn't fit with the current drabble theme, so is it still ok if I post it, just don't reward anyone condoms?

And man, getting that 100 word count just right, is so difficult! I was already impressed with drabble writers, especially ones that work it tons of emotions all into those 100 words. Mine isn't that impressive, but hey, I did it! :D

P.S. I was just about to leave my computer then was like "nooo must save drabble just in case computer eats it while I'm away!"

Don't want that happening again.

Thinking about 513 before bed.

It just gets me all worked up and upset.

Wahhh. I spent all last night crying and staying up until 5:30am, I cannot do that again tonight. Maybe I'll go read something to get my mind off it.

For most, the end of season 2 is pain. I can get through that no problem. Slight twinge of hurt, but I know it ends happily in 308.

But season 5? For me that is my torture. As each episode goes by I get closer and closer to an end that continues to distress me.

I just wrote three fucking pages about Season 5 and was gonna post it and then thought "oh let's learn how to do an IJ cut so I don't spam everyone's flist! SO I copied it into Word. Then I tried to do an IJ cut and did control X with what I just wrote and was like "wait, I should do a practice run first." So then I coped the IJ cut code and put some gibberish.

You see what happened? Cause I didn't realize it until now when I saw the Word document was blank. I copied what I wrote, but then copied something else, deleting the previous thng. I checked the clipboard but nothing.

I am so upset. Like in tears, screaming. I had written up dialogue from the scenes, I had written all my thoughts. Anyone know if there's any way to retrieve that data again? If there is, OMG I will love you. Like become your slave or something.

Otherwise I'm gonna have to do it all over and I'm feeling too crushed to do that right now.

You have no idea, I was all pumped and revved about this, then this happens.

P.S. Thanks to Nolyana I now know how to do an IJ cut...but thanks to myself I now don't have anything to do a cut for. :(

Let's see if I figured this out

( I love Britin )

So I had this dream last night...well actually this morning, but anyway.

So it was at the diner, and Mel, Linds, Michael, Ted, Emmett and Brian were all sitting at a booth, while Justin is walking around bussing tables. Mel says "Man I wish I had his skin." Michael says "I wish I had his hair." And Lindsey says "I wish I had his lips." Then Emmett says "Oh no way; you all are missing the best part. His ass, I want his ass." And Brian looks at them and is all "Well then I guess you're jealous of me since I get to have them all" And right then Justin comes over and they kiss.

The great part was although at the beginning I was just kinda watching over all of this, at the end I was Justin, so I was getting to have a great makeout session with Brian.

The bad part was right then was when my mom woke me to give my dog her medicine.

*sigh*

I would be quite happy to have Justin's skin, hair, lips and ass. And having Brian around to make out with and do other naughty things wouldn't be so bad either. ;D

Does anyone know what "trouting" is online?

I've been IMed three times, all by screennames that had some "fish" in the name and I just realized that tonight I googled the sn and realized that there's something called trouting but I have yet to figure out what exactly that is. Somehow it seems to be connected with public journal entries.

I just checked my bank account and I have less than $120.

I NEED to get a job. Bah.

I've been home for almost a month and still jobless!! GAH.

I'm looking at all these job listing sites and feel overwhelmed.

*wishes dream job would fall into her lap*

Does anyone have fic rec's for Brian or Justin have amnesia?

I would like for it to be well written, and believable, not crack!fic or anything, and preferably not too AU. I mean, I don't want Brian to be a doctor and Justin his amnesia patient. But if it's like a "what if?" kinda thing in canon, that's ok. Haha I suppose rec it to me, and if it's not my cup of tea I just don't read it--probably easier for everyone.

I know I've heard of ones out there but haven't read any before, but for some reason it came into my head today.

I assume it goes without saying that it has a happy ending? So when I'm done reading I'm not like "AHH!!!" Haha I can think that like halfway through reading it, but by the end I want the only tears to be tears of joy.

Thanks for any help! :D

SQUEE

Tweak said: "trust no one Mr. Mulder!"

That's the first X-files saying I've seen, how exciting!

QaF AND The X-files, oh how I love Tweak.

I am officially a dog owner! I signed the papers and paid the fees, so now I just have to wait until they spay her and do other health stuff!

I'm excited but nervous. My family has had dogs before but none of them were MY dogs so that means more responsibility! Also our previous dogs were already here when I came into the family, so knowing them, accepting, loving them was natural--they were family. But this dog has to get to know us and we have to get to know her. What if it doesn't work out?

About a year ago we had a dog for a week, but decided it wasn't the right fit so returned her. We were told another family adopted her, one that had kids which was probably good for her, which made me feel better, but also sad. Like I felt maybe it was me, maybe I was expecting too much or something. It may have also been because not enough time had passed since we had to put our old dog down (she was in really poor health) so there was still that comparison thing happening,

I just really hope this is the right dog for us, for me, and we're the right family for her. I volunteer at the animal shelter where I adopted her from and I just see all those animals and it makes me feel happy to see people adopt them, but in the back of my mind I think of the dogs and cats who have been there for a long time. When I get older I'll probably be the crazy lady with a farm that has a million animals since I always want to adopt and "save" every animal I see.

Anyway, there's some insight on my connection with animals that you probably weren't interested in haha.

I'm not exactly sure why, but I've been feeling less enthusiasm for fandom. I've still been reading through my flist, making comments, etc. and I even have moments of pure joy when I read something but overall it's like I almost dread it now. It could just be I'm slowly losing my obsession for QaF; I've become obsessed with shows in the past and there's usually a slow progression away from that. I will at first be like "OMG!" then slowly over time it becomes less and less. I still love the shows, don't get me wrong, but I just am not as interested as being "involved" with everything that has to do with the show.

And fandom seems to both help and hinder my obsession. The way I function is this: when I get a thought, idea, etc in my head I have to get it out--whether it be I talk to someone or write it down, otherwise it will drive me crazy floating around in my head. (I had issues falling asleep last night because I was thinking about this, but told myself my computer was turned off so I had to wait until the morning.) Which is why fandom is good because then I'm surrounded by people who like the same thing as I do so I can't go on and on about it and it's not weird, and no one is thinking "ok, it's just a TV show, shut up already." But just like the real world, once you let others into your head, your "world" if you will, then things get affected, both good and bad. When I watched the show by myself I had an idea, an impression of what I thought I was going on, but when you join a community you see others' view, which can be good. It opens your eyes to other views, but it can also ruin things for you.

Perhaps I'm just a sensitive person. Actually, there's no perhaps, I am. I have been working on that, and I get better every day, but I will always take things to heart, and although I'm trying not to take things as a personal attack, I continue to get upset.

It's a bit sad, since I saw the QaF fandom as like my safe haven, as a place I could go to brighten my day, but I'm not feeling that so much. Maybe it's just personal issues are overshadowing things, and I'll find my enthusiasm again. I've been having random emotional moments, but where the fandom would once make me feel happy and comforted, instead I feel the same thing I do in other situations where I get upset and cry, and then become angry. Not fun.

Anyway, I just had to get it out, otherwise it'd eat me away.

Well this was heart-wrenching:

http://windtossed.livejournal.com/5688.html

Absolutely beautiful and I think in character, but heart-wrenching nonetheless. I suppose it hurts because it is so spot on. Thank God I know Justin does indeed love him as much as he loves Justin, and they live happily ever after.

Otherwise this would tear me to shreds.

Almost done with the cancer fics. Not sure what I'll do after I'm done though...

Ok, so clear something up for me fandom members: which side of the bed IS Justin's?

I would say, if I were standing at the foot of their bed, facing the bed, my right. That seems to be where he sleeps/lies most of the time, but sometimes when I read a fic, I get the impression they assume it's the other side, but yet clearly state how it's Justin's side.

So I thought I would just put it out there and see what I got. Man, right about now I wish I knew how to do a poll.

OH! The icon, I'm using, where Justin is lying there, yeah that's the side I consider HIS side, just in case my description wasn't clear.

I know in the scheme of things. this really isn't that important, but it's been bugging me when I read fics and his side of the bed seems to constantly change.

So I've been reading through the list of fics that nolyana so kindly gave me, and I just read ragingpixie's Divergence.

And I'm sure most of you have read it, but when I got to the last chapter...oh man I started to cry and think "NO NO NO!" then kept reading and felt happy, happy relief flooding through me. It's weird, when I started it I was like "oh I've read this' but by chapter three I was like "no I haven't"-- for some reason I must not have finished it before. Maybe I was afraid of the pain to come? It is pretty painful, but in the end very happy.

Well onto the next! I love that this list is alphabetical--I have a weird obsession of putting things in alphabetical order so it makes my A-Z heart happy!

Well i was going to post this fic request the other night, but did't but now after re-reading silentlywrecked's AMAZING drabbles it's made me once again itch again for this type of fic.

Ok, so anyone have any good recs for fics that take place during the cancer arc? I know I've read some  , but I always forget titles (In Health by Raginpixie is the only one I can think of) , so I'll just leave the door wide-open.  It can be  standalones or longer works, anything.

Thanks!

P.S. I was going to change my icon, then realized Brian's crotch it kinda fitting...and the other reason is  I don't have many icons from S4, eep!

Blah I really want a new layout.

And I wish I could figure the QaF mood theme because I want that too! I tried to follow the instructions I was given...but it didn't work. I suppose I should really just sit down and fiddle with it, but I'd like it to just be easy. Like on Myspace I like how you can just copy and paste in the code for the layout. I was just trying to change the colors for my layout here and it's complicated! Since you have that whole color thing, but if you want your colors to coordinate it's hard-I just end up clicking around on the color square and hoping they look good together.

Maybe it's just all new to me and once I figure it out it won't seem so complicated. I just want a pretty background. :( And since I get bored easily, I like the ability to change it on whim and do so pretty effortlessly.

AHHH!!!

It's so weird to be looking for a full time, real job. I've only had summer jobs. It's so weird for me to realize that I won't be going back to school in the fall. That I'm done. Finished. (Well unless I do grad school.)

But eep! I feel so lost and clueless to this whole "job" thing. I am currently looking at craigslist.org and I read these jobs and am like "am I qualified?" And all this talk about people getting laid off, positions getting removed, no one hiring?!

I feel so under-prepared for life!  I still don't the think the reality of it all has hit me yet. It's started to, but not completely.

Meep. Can I be five again and have no responsibilities and where I'm actually encouraged to take a nap?

Whenever I should open my mouth and speak my mind, I instead keep it closed. And regret it.

Whenever I should keep my mouth shut, and keep my thoughts to myself, I instead let everything out. And regret it.

When I was a kid I would play on my swing set, creating stories with my imaginary friends, and I controlled things like you would a VCR. When playtime was over I would say "pause" and it would stay there until the next day when I would say "play." But the most important feature was the rewind/erase option, where I would go back to a certain point of the story and try things over.

If only that was an option in real life.

After each episode I've been watching I've been reading the corresponding gapfiller listed here:

http://flamencanyc.insanejournal.com/798.html

And I just read this one for 206:

http://www.mags-nificent.com/MSW/JuF/Say.htm

And I fell in love. it's so beautiful and bittersweet.

*pets Brian*